The coming of spring lightens my heart and sunshine makes everything feel better.
I've been getting reminders from the universe, affirmations, reassurances. And I've been seeing hearts everywhere. The sugar I poured into the banana bread batter arranged itself into a heart shape. Splashes of water on the counter are hearts. Rocks, leaves, they're heart-shaped, too.
I haven't had my camera out very much these past months, preferring to experience life's moments instead of photographing them. Even my journal has been sitting neglected.
Sometimes we need a break of sorts.
Time to just be. Stillness.
Not that I've been very good at honoring stillness. I'm working on a few different projects.
And I have so many ideas. I find it hard not to be doing something.
I can be a slow learner. I have written about my struggle to slow down many times here on my blog (here, here, here, here and here, for example). It's always a struggle for me.
I guess that's why the universe constantly sends me messages to slow down. I wish they didn't have to be quite so dramatic (though I guess I wouldn't listen if they weren't). Yesterday while packaging some paintings to send to their new owner, I sliced off the edge/tip of my thumb with my X-Acto blade.* You would think that I would listen to that. SLOW DOWN. But, no, after I wrapped it up, I kept working on projects and getting frustrated that the bleeding would not stop. If I had just sat still for a while... (I seriously had this thought during the process: If I can't work in the studio, maybe I should spend some time working in the garden, instead. OK, universe, I get it!).
Intention is my word for the year. I'm striving for mindfulness. I'm striving to be present. One of the biggest lessons I've been learning from this year's detour is to be present, to take each day as the gift that it is, to savor joy, to let go of worry. There's been a learning curve and I'm still working on it. This is a good reminder to keep going.
I hope you will take some time today just to be. Listen to the stillness. Notice life's beauties and joys and let everything else drop away for a while.
*Amazingly, I didn't get blood on any of the paintings or anywhere in my studio at all. And my thumb will be ok, so don't fret.