Oh, there are many reasons for it. This discombobulated life I've been leading since the end of January is probably the biggest. Focusing on fabric design is another. But there are other things as well.
One reason I didn't even want to acknowledge was the fact that I was a bit scared to start a new painting. I kept avoiding it. Not consciously. I'd just distract myself with other things or convince myself I didn't have time. I felt antsy. Unfocused. But I also began to feel pulled. Pulled to paint.
And so, finally, I did.
Choosing to paint an orchid was easy. The plants by the side window of my studio are filled with flowers right now.
I've painted orchids before (Here, too. Plus there's this painting and this one). I like painting them (I guess that might be obvious by now).
I mixed colors. I painted test swatches. I played a bit in my watercolor sketchbook, testing out the colors a bit more and the next day I jumped right in.
It felt wonderful to be putting paint to paper, again. To be painting flowers. To be in my studio. I mentioned that on Instagram while I was painting that first day.
In my studio was surrounded by flowers. The orchids, and others, too. The air was scented with cyclamen and jasmine.
My painting progressed with such ease. No fear. No hesitation. I don't remember ever painting with so much confidence. Usually there's a bit of nervousness. There's a bit of critical chatter in my mind. This time, even when I made mistakes, I simply rolled with them. I kept painting, knowing it would all come out in the end. And it did.*
I wish I hadn't put off painting for so long. But maybe I needed some time away from it to fully appreciate painting again.
Is there something that you've been avoiding or putting off? Maybe today would be a good day to start.
*This painting is now available in my shop.